So Discouraged

I did my measurements again today.  A couple of days less one month and ZERO change.  I am still fighting that 20 pound mark - for almost 2 months now, I might add - and, despite working out 3-5 times a week, nothing is happening.  No shrinking from weight loss or inches.  While I know I am not giving up, it makes me wonder why bother?  I should have lost alot more than 20 lbs in three months.  I know this because I have done it just on Weight Watchers alone with no exercising ... just by watching what I eat ... and now I exercise more and eat better with no results?  What am I doing wrong?  I swim an average of 3x/week and, when I do, I am breathing heavy, heart rate is up and the pausing between laps is less both in frequency and duration.  Last week I started walking and it is a brisk walk.  Again, heart rate is up, breathing is heavier and my body temperature is increased to almost a sweat yet still ... no changes.  My eating is not 100% but it is pretty damned good for the most part.  I just don't understand the human body.  Even with my PCOS, it shouldn't be this hard.  Time to change my habits more, I think.  Less of this and more of that.  At this point, I could really cry.  *sigh*

it's ONLY one minute...

this is what I kept telling myself as I attempted jogging again - this time following day one of the Couch to 5k program.  I did a brisk walk for 5 minutes before starting the program which also starts with a 5 minute brisk walk.  Then it happens.  ding - - ding - - ding - - "start running" the voice on the iPod tells me. So I did and wouldnt you know it ... I FREAKING DID IT.  I ran for 60 continuous seconds ... ONE WHOLE MINUTE.  I was stolked and actually cheered for myself when I was done -- out loud.  Unfortunately, a friend drove by and stopped my workout for about 20 minutes and I found it hard to restart after cooling down completely.  That being said, I did complete a 4.5 km walk AND RAN TWO MORE TIMES @ 1 minute each time.  Man I was sucking wind but it felt good.  I actually felt proud of myself for the first time in such a long time.  I haven't run a continuous minute since I was in high school a million ago and a bazillion pounds lighter.  Week 1 of this program may actually become week 1 a, week 1 b, etc but I will eventually get to week two. :o)