And I'm Off...

Here I go again, on the journey to finding a healthier me.  I need to do this.  I am desperate to do this.  I hate being fat and out of shape.  I want to tuck in my shirt without having the hanging belly.  I want to know that I can sit in a plane without having to wedge my ass between the arm rests and ask for a seatbelt extender.  I want to feel thin enough to go on the rides at Calypso without fear of getting stuck in the water tube or being stared at like a beached whale.  (Don't say it wont happen.  It does.  Others do it.  I do it - although not critically but usually out of admiration).  I want to run - not walk - run up a flight of stairs without being winded.  I just want to feel good about myself.  That is all.

After losing 50 lbs last year, I got pregnant (again).  Constant and insatiable needs to eat combined with partial bedrest (go to work, go to bed.  its the weekend .. stay in bed) found the pounds creeping back.  The food was not unhealthy for the most part ... I think it was the lack of activity I was now facing after several months of aquafit classes.  30 lbs later, here I am starting again.  The only thing that is different this time .... I am not alone.

Three times a week, two of my friends and I will drive to Ottawa to take deep water aquafit classes.  I am completely stoked.  I come alive in the water.  I feel so free.  The beauty of the aquafit schedule is that I will be doing 2 - 45 minute classes each time I go.  That is 6 workouts in three days plus wii fit once I get it hooked up on off days.  I am not going to join Weight Watchers as of yet.  I am going to change my eating habits on my own and so far so good.  I brought lunch every day last week and have done all the prep work so that I can throw my lunches together every day this week.  This may seem menial but it is definitely HUGE.  I am the worst when it comes to bringing a lunch. 

Tomorrow I am also going to do an unheard of for me.  I am going to stand tall and take a photo of myself .... in a bathing suit.  ACK!  I will repeat the process on the 13th of every month as to provide myself with a visual incentive.  Maybe one day I will even share it on here .... maybe.

Here we go.  I am going to do it this time.  Not for my husband, not for my family, not for the babies I want to have .... for me!